I can still remember the first time me and my husband met and fell in love. Both of us were in a relationship, I was with MJ for about 8 months, but his eyes met mine like we’ve known each other so long, so well… His name is Jhun Cruz, the man I never believe I could fell in love with that I would have a beautiful daughter to be born with him… Destiny did bring us together; both of us were searching for true love. Everything happened so fast, I was at my friends’ house which happens to be his girlfriend at that time; just visiting her I met Jhun. We had a little party that lasted up until wee hours. But we were just talking about things, on who he knows and why he was here and how he met my friend and stuff. It felt like we have this link or something. Time to get home when he volunteered to drive me home because I can’t drive anymore, the Vodka cruiser was starting to get into my system. Just few blocks away from my place, I notice I left my purse at my friend’s house. My keys, my wallet, my phone were all in the purse! I told him we have to go back, when he back the car, I started to feel all those I ate from the party getting their way out of my tummy. So I told him to stop the car and out I went to vomit in the pavement. Yes, it was gross. But when I tried to go back into his car, I suddenly felt dizzy and last thing I know I was in the car staring at the window and don’t even know where I am.
I heard a click, like door lock clicking… Am I already at home? How did I ever get home? I opened my eyes and saw Jhun sitting beside me, in a bed, in a place, somewhere I don’t know. He then kissed me which was so gross… I then realized I couldn’t move, I am still dizzy. Big time! I couldn’t even feel his hands caressing my body but I could see it being done. Ok, ok, I know what you’re thinking, I didn’t scream, nor didn’t move or shove him. I did let him do what he wants. I am not that easy but there’s something about him that I could feel him so much. And I am aware that there’s something wrong with what we are doing but I get on it anyway. Came morning, he got up and I can still picture him with his birthday suit smiling at me. I got up dress up and went home without even saying a word to him.
Two months after, I had this fight with my boyfriend. He was furious over something I don’t know of. That night he went out to meet his friends, but I followed him with a friend of his. I saw him with other girl and he was having this fight with one of his friends. His arms were all around her, as if protecting her with all of he had. I went inside with his friend who accompanied me in that party and MJ looks so confused and bothered he was shocked. What am I doing there? Why am I the one to feel embarrassed? Dexter, his friend whom I was with took my hand and pulled me out of the place but with my anger, I grabbed a bottle and throw it forcefully on MJ. He, on the other hand push his girl and went up to me and slapped me. His friends grabbed him away from me and Dexter hugged me and he took me away from that place. We drove at one of my friend’s house and cry my heart out there. When I got home our place was locked. I have no choice but to sleep in the laundry room. I was in pain inside, cried myself to sleep…
Morning came and my back hurts as well as my heart. I called some friends with some kind of connections since I don’t have anything in my mind but to get even with MJ to fight back. To get revenge. When I was in my cousin’s place and crying, one of my cousins introduced me to a so called “experience” guy. I had a talk with the guy and he wants me to meet his best friend to deal with my problem. He mentioned his name was Jhun but I didn’t mind. My head is on how I could take my revenge with MJ on how I could see him suffer. He told me to meet his best friend that very day. He called him up not mentioning my name and he agreed to come over right away.
I was sitting in front of the TV when Jhun arrived. Our eyes met, he was stunned by seeing me. I remember he even turned red. But there was this certain feeling that instead of punching him in the face, I want to hug him, cry in front of him despite of what happened between us. We acted like we don’t know each other and talked about things. All about how I could take revenge on MJ. I told him I will pay him but he said no. He didn’t accept the deal but he said he will take care of it. He asked me for descriptions but I couldn’t describe MJ so we decided to just spot him. We agreed on taking the mission smoothly by first showing him where MJ likes to hang out and MJ’s place. We drove around a little and when we had a chance to talk about what happened to us it just came out like that… He told me he was thinking about me and what happened that he wants us to be together. I said I will think about it…
I went back to my place in Manila, 9 hours’ drive away from our place in the province. Jhun and I continued getting in touch. One day he told me it was done. I can’t believe it at first but he was really was telling the truth cause one of my friends texted me and told me about what happened to MJ. He was at the hospital with few bruises and both of his eyes were like of those with panda.
Went back home in our place in the province. Dexter and some of my friends were asking me to go to this resort that had just opened. We went there to check it out but I can’t feel the crowd because most of them were bunch of drunkards and odd looking. We decided to just drink at my place when Jhun texted me and asked me to go to his girlfriend’s place which by the way my friend, so we all agreed to just have our drinking session there. When we arrived, Jhun was sitting beside Cory, his girlfriend, my friend, when Dexter seen what was going on he put his arms on my shoulder and nod on Jhun. The night was passing… when suddenly my Dad’s driver/bodyguard came over and forced me to go home. I know by then that Jhun gave him a call. I know by then that he was jealous that I am with Dexter, and he can’t get me to talk to him or not even to flirt with me.
Days passed, I ignored his messages and calls. I don’t want to entertain him since he was Cory’s property. Then Cory texted me and told me that Jhun is madly in love with me. That he wants to talk to me and that Cory wants us to be together since she isn’t really in love with Jhun. So I then entertained him and we talked. But my Dad who was aware of what Jhun feels for me because his ever reliable driver/bodyguard told him so, was so against him and of what our relationship will go through. Jhun and I dated but behind my Dad’s eyes. We were so in love… I remember him hugging me and telling me he would fight for me and that he will never hurt me the way my exes did. And so we were an item.
I went back to Manila for my studies. I was taking up a second course since my Dad didn’t approve of me completing BS Computer Science. I was busy with my studies taking up nursing but we continuously texting and calling each other, Jhun and I. One day, while it was heavily raining outside, he called me up and asked me to go to out gate. I saw him there, soaking wet. I asked him to get inside and dry up his clothes. Then most of it was love. He then decided to live in Manila so that he could visit me most often. One night he was sitting in our single seat couch and I was sitting on his lap, we were talking. He was confessing how bad was his life was. He got jailed twice that he was a drug addict before our relationship. He even told me stories about his childhood which was so painful for him because he has to live with his mother in a very poor environment with a very grouchy and drunkard stepfather who keeps on beating him. He lives from house to house when he couldn’t take the beating anymore. His two sisters were beat up to death by their stepfather but because of poverty his stepfather was just there and never did get the blame for the deaths. His mother was madly, crazily in love with his stepfather that she was blinded by it. By then and there, I felt his pain, his sorrows, his everything… I don’t know how to describe it but I feel like we were just one. That whenever he tells me stories bout him being hurt I get hurt as well. The night ended up me sleeping on his lap and just hugging him….
Three months passed and my Dad visited me in my place in Manila. He didn’t saw Jhun in there but he said he could feel him living in there so he confronted me and told me to let him go or else he would be forced to send me away. Out of the country that is. But I love Jhun so much that I couldn’t let go. Jhun and I decided to get married in Makati mayor’s office not far away from our place. And decided to have a baby. We got what we wished for. I was two months pregnant after three months of trying. We were so happy by the blessing God gave us.
My mom and my sister want to get rid of the baby. We even went to an abortionist to just get through with it. But my sister changed her mind she pretended to go in the abortionist and when she came back to our meeting place she said the abortionist isn’t home and that she will be back after a month. But I saw her just around the block and was just there staring at our meeting place. She didn’t go to the abortionist then her texted me saying she wants the baby to be born.
I want to get away from them… from those who wanted my baby gone. I was crying my heart out. I have loved my baby even before she was in my tummy. I did wish for her to arrive but when she’s finally here my mom whom I believed would understand me wants my baby to die. I was confused by then so I decided to get away from them, I choose Jhun over them, my own family, and I run away with him. We lived in an apartment with no furniture whatsoever. We started by scratch yet we were happy. We were so in love that even if we have nothing we were still glad we have each other. Until one day, after we got home from market, I suddenly felt dizzy, so I lay down for a while, when Jhun checked if I’m okay he saw blood running down my legs. Then when I got up, more blood flows! I fainted. When I woke up I was in the hospital bed with lots of IV. I called out for the nurse on duty and the only thing I asked was if the baby was still with me. She smiled and says the baby was fine that I just needed some rest. Tears fell down my cheeks, tears of joy that my baby was alive. By then I promised myself I will do anything for my baby to survive. My husband then visited my room and he was smiling, he said my sister was outside taking care of the paper works and that she was glad the baby was okay. Then I got a call from my mom saying how sorry she was to even attempt to abort my baby. My heart was jumping for joy when finally everybody was happy I was pregnant including my mom.
I got out of the hospital three days after. I decided to go back in the province and spend my days waiting for my baby to come out there. I stayed at home, but even though my mom accepted the baby she can’t accept Jhun to be her son in law, so Jhun often visited our place by that time. My grandmother hated Jhun for some reason and even calls him by some name you wouldn’t imagine she would say. I, on the other hand was torn between my family and Jhun. But I never stop explaining to my mom and my grandma that I am pregnant and that Jhun and I were married, that we have to be together because I love him with all my heart.
Four months have passed my family then decided we can be together but we have to stay in the house. They want me and my baby to stay there since we are a small family. Jhun agreed and he did his best to win their heart. He often clean the house and he did everything to earn, from selling used goods to even well, selling illegal things like guns and the like. Yes, it was wrong but that’s the way he was and that’s what he do. One day, while we were having breakfast there was knocked on the door. When I opened it two policemen asking for Jhun and they gave me a subpoena, an order to arrest him. I was shocked and didn’t even know what to say or do. My husband went out early that day and I have no idea where he might be. So I told the policemen to just come back that afternoon. When I read the subpoena, it came from the RTC of Vigan City not far away from our province. It stated there that he was accused of frustrated murder and that police were looking for him for a year now. I was shocked…. I was crying and then again blood flows down my legs… My mom who saw what happened to me rushed me to the hospital. At the hospital I told my mom about everything. And that I needed money for bail bond. Jhun arrived at the hospital and was crying. When I saw him cry I felt like I was stab deep in my heart and I also by then crying. My mom cannot bear to see me like that so after I got out from the hospital she lends me money for Jhun’s bail bond.
We settled the bail. But then we need to earn money for our baby and for the monthly trial in the court. So again my mom lends us money for business. We started our poultry business in our farm. We were living the simple life and that was the happiest moment of my life. Each time I wake up in the morning and see Jhun beside me, I was so happy… I want it to last forever. To just stay as it was. Simple, happy, and whole.
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